I had to give it up I had to because I couldn't do it alone
and that's the magic formula, we just cant CANT do it alone, the thing is you need to stop doubting God, he will pull you through this hell, no matter where you are and what you are going through, we make ourselves crazy thinking of how can we ever live happy again, or what is going to happen to us now, etc etc. God wants you to put your full trust in Him and just KNOW you will be ok no matter what.
Be not afraid...I will repay you for the years the locusts have eaten Joel2
30something 2kids survivor of S, MLC, A, D I have peace in my heart, at last.