Chris, I will be thinking of you this weekend. I am in such a similar situation. We are going up to my family home this weekend, but I would KILL to have just about anyone join us. None of my friends could make it. So it's just going to be me, H and the girls.
I, too, backslide frequently. I try hard to maintain the DBing, but, look, we are not robots, we are human and this stuff hurts like hell. It's OK to be mad and hurt and to show that sometimes, I think. Begging, pleading--yep, those have to go, but letting your H know that his actions are causing a lot of pain--to me, that's OK.
Let's compare notes on Tuesday.
Me/X-H: 47/48 T 19 yrs M 16 years D14 D10 ILYBINILWY: 10/07 H moved out 6/08