I think she wants to be friends

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We'll here we are, the morning of what will probably be the first battle of the post-divorce cake eating war. I don't like this time, when I can see the fight coming but do absolutely nothing to stop it. It's kinda like being in a car wreck at that moment when you know you're going to crash and everything seems to move in slow motion, but you can't do anything to stop it.

W wants me to pick up kids this afternoon and keep them tonight because she is "tired" and wants to get some things done. I am willing to pick them up because it fits my schedule, but I am not going to keep them tonight. I kept them Sunday night (her night). She has never kept them when it was my time and we had our last MAJOR fight (OM participated) the last time I asked. I think I have only asked twice in the 1.5 years of this mess, she requests it pretty regularly, sometimes to go on trips w/OM.

I have decided whenever it is good for all concerned (kids, me and her)) I'll keep them, but if not I won't. I am going to tell her this when she pushes the issue which she will. Sunday was an example of an instance when it was good for all.

Last time she wanted me to take them and I didn't it turned into a pretty good fight, she even pulled out the "this is why we're getting a divorce" line. We'll now we ARE divorced. If she asks if I have a "hot date" again I'm going to respond, "I have plans tonight, tomorrow night, and I'm working on setting some up for Saturday night."

"I love the smell of napalm in the morning. It smells like............victory." Robert Duvall, Apocylapse Now