Just a few more thought provoking words from me...
If I could go back with the knowledge I have now and do my marriage to my ex-husband over again, here are things I would do differently:
*Be more sexual, have sex with him more often, and even if I wasn't feeling it I would have figured out some way to make myself feel it - no matter what that took!
*Be more emotionally connected to him and put him higher in my heart than my children, instead of the other way around.
*Insist on counseling if/when things got bad between us.
*Be more open and honest and have more intimacy with him.
*Take more responsibility for ways I had hurt him and correct them.
*Be more appreciative and supportive of him especially when he was down.
Now - I want to make it very clear that I am not in love with my ex-h anymore and I would never go back to him. And yet, because I did not "do the right thing" in my marriage, I still wish I could have a "do over". EVEN IF WE STILL WOULD HAVE ENDED UP DIVORCED I WOULD STILL WANT TO DO IT OVER AND DO THE RIGHT THING, BECAUSE IT IS THE RIGHT THING.
Instead I did the wrong things and will forever be disappointed in myself for failing. Had I done the right thing, even if we still ended up divorced, I would not have failed.
