I DO care about my marriage, I really do. I just feel so pushed back, and treated like crap, that I don't want this stranger back. Yes, I've listened to his gripes about me, and some are valid, MOST are WAY off base. I'm tired of the finger pointed at me, when he is clearly bordering on, if not full-on, abusive.
If I were to tell him today, "Let's work on our marriage." His response would be, "Great. How are you going to change?"
I'm never going to convince him that he needs help, that he is abusive, or that he's hurtful.
I KNOW the things I need to work on, and I don't deny any of those things, but I also won't go back to the SAME MAN. I will NOT put up with disrespect. I WILL NOT put up with verbal abuse, nor will i put up with physical abuse. I can't.
I feel so for gone that I just want out. I feel there have been so many wall put up in the last 6mos, and HURT, and I don't know how to explain it...It's like this "distance" between us, that I don't know how to shorten. It literally makes me want to run further away.
Last edited by ms ladybug; 05/21/0807:56 PM.
Me 36 Husband 35 D5 S2 separated: 10/29/07-present Served divorce papers 1/22/09 "When the world gives out beneath your feet, it is time to learn how to fly."
