For the record, I am not going to do anything stupid and take my life. It was more of a figure of speech from my frustration in all of this.
I have an appointment with a supposedly real top notch go-getter attorney tomorrow.
Maybe she can help my confidence a little bit in this case.
I just feel like this judge so far is siding with JA.
He gets to walk out the door on me and the boys, treat me like crap, be nothing but a disney dad when it's convenient for him and still gets his way in the end.
I think the Law Guardian was totally out of place by recommending a 6 month trial for JA to step up to the plate.
Of course he would do it for 6 months so I couldn't go anywhere and then we would be right back where we started from.
He hasn't stepped up to the plate in over 2 years!
His latest shenanigans is that he wants to take the boys tomorrow night since the boys have off Friday and Monday from school.
I was told by my L that if the boys have off from school on a Monday of the weekend he has them, he can have them for an extended weekend.
She did not tell me I had to give them to him early though.
He left a message on my answering machine this morning also that he would like to pick up S4 early today and then pick up S7 from school.
I am so tired of him wanting me to give, give, give and he gives nothing in return.
I put up a fight about it but with no legal recourse right now I have nothing to back me up.
So he came and got S4, I convinced him to wait until S7 gets off the bus before he gets him.
After he picked up S4 he calls me up and says "You know I just want to say that if you ever want to get out at night like go out with your friends or anything just call me up and I will come up and watch the boys so you can go out. I don't have anything to do so I don't mind if I have to come up every night and watch them."
I just responded with a "uh-huh."
He is playing a game. He is trying to show the courts that he is Mr. Wonderful Dad and I am trying to hold him back.
In 2 years he has not offered that. One of the reasons he gave me for not coming home every night when we were together was because the drive was too much for him. Now it's not?
For so long I fought him over him wanting me to meet him halfway because he didn't want to make the whole drive himself, and now he has no problem coming up every night to watch the kids so I can go out?
It's all an act and I am not playing along with it right now.
I will hopefully like this L tomorrow and she can give me some advice.
Right now I am so damn frustrated because I feel like no matter what I am being screwed from every angle.
