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[thegoodfight]

Your feelings for the OM will go away, you will see the affair for what it is in time. Once you forgive yourself, you husband sounds like he has the capacity and desire to forgive you!

Try this, only think about your husband and how much you would miss your kids. Do that over and over for about a week! Think about how much your husband must love you and how much compassion he has for you to work through this with you after you cheated on him! Lied to him!

I am not beating you up! I judge by actions today and going forward not by the past! But if you put it in plain terms, focus on that and think about your life, without your kids, and without that love and compassion! Tried and true love, not fairy tale New BS. TRIED and TRUE LOVE! If you follow this it will help you, if you forgive yourself, you will open up the door to true intimacy again! But it takes time and discipline, and then before you know it, you won't be trying anymore, you will be doing!