He wants to be around more. He touches me more. He talks more to me(about everyday stuff). He gives more kisses. He is more involved with the kids.
These are things that I praise him on but,he doesn't seem to be able to move forward from here. Before the bomb he sould not stand to be in the same room with me.
I feel it is because of the feelings he still has for her. He can not allow himself to fell for me. I sense this at different times. As of late she is back working his shift so the drift now I think has to do with that.
It is a big baby step that he told me his feelings about it, as he was saying that there was nothing, and believe me I thank him for that. Now I wonder what else he lied about and if he feels comfortable enough to tell me now. Just doesn't make it any easier for me. I am trying to figure out what I need right now for me to be able to continue.
I do think that we are both defensive sometimes. I try not to be and don't think that I have been an a while, not good Dbing but, I feel at times everyone slips up.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
