W was away for 2.5 days. I really enjoyed kid time and keeping up w/ everything. Many contacts from W on non kid items. She seemed lonely on trip. Nice conversation last night with no R/D talk. I really cannot understand how she can look to me as a friend to talk with and yet be hurting me so bad. I don't show the hurt in any way. I so much want to pursue and say ILY but I know that would be a backslide.
Anger level is way down. Many baby steps met but no breakthroughs. Been trying hard to calm the enviroment down.
Will try for another good day today. I feel like we are getting to a "normal" status as coparents/friends when the legal stuff is out of the picture. I do not see it getting beyond that but just staying there would be nice - a solid phase 2.
I will have the kids all weekend as W is going away. It will be another "test" on what the post D sitch will be like. I am hopeful that she misses us, all of us. She seemed to have issues with it this week.
Is there any WAW's that can help me on the Friend/Hurt question?
