I know. You are right. I can't tell you what it is that set this off. I am at work right now so I have plenty to do. I would love to put the phone away, but since D21 is ready to give birth anyday, I need to keep it handy, at least for the time being. I know I don't want to call, and yet I miss the sound of his voice and just want to know he forgives me for the suggestive comment. But I can't force him to either, and I know from past experience that he has to mull it over in his mind before he lets it go. (((Michelle))) thanks.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
(((((Jeff))))) Thanks. Whew...that panic attack was bad. I haven't had one in a while, but it has been a while since we have gone this long without speaking. I know I need to step back and let him kind of absorb everything, and I have to remember to treat him the way he wants to be treated, not the way I want to treat him. Sometimes it is hard to keep perspective so I thank God I have you all!!!
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
Thanks (((Michelle))). I actually have been really busy this morning, but am due for a little break in about 20 minutes. I am going to step outside for a minute and just catch my breath.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
My boss was in the middle of a divorce, and he and his family had a weekend getaway. He is wearing his wedding ring again!!! I really think that is great news...and just wanted to share.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
I have to realize it is okay for me to get angry, and I really don't think I have been able to do that yet.
My H had an EA, and when he told me he did not want to be with me anymore I believe it was a direct result of this. This is not to say there were not problems that led to this, but I digress...again.
He met the OW at work. I knew they were friends, but he had never given me a reason to distrust him so I didn't worry. She was going through a rough divorce, and they were "smoking buddies." Now, I know that he did not actually have a PA with her, because, well, he can't. This may be the reason he is so mad at me right now for suggesting sex. (He was supposed to be on a testosterone treatment so I figured it was worth a shot. <~~~not one of my better moments). Anyway, back on the subject, the night he told me he could not be married to me anymore, I did something I never do and went through his email. I found love letters from her, not to her, and pictures she sent him of the two of them sitting together outside. I was so hurt I thought I was going to have a breakdown. He was gone, told me he was leaving me, and then all of a sudden here is this woman who took my H.
The biggest part is he really talked to her about our marriage. For such a long time, I have buried these feelings of anger because I don't want to feel like I am walking away. But I know it is okay for me to be angry, and so I am going to try not to bury the feelings, and be angry at him for hurting me. I am angry that he chose to speak to another woman instead of me. I am angry that he is not calling me. I am angry that he does not want to live with me right now. I am angry at myself for feeling like I always have to make excuses for him.
Whew.
Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..
