Thought I would provide a little balance to my usual enthusiastic posts. Yesterday and today I am fighting a bit of depression. I wanted to mention this because I do not want to come accross that life is purely great. It is great, but I do still have struggles.
I do miss my kids and wish I could be with them more. My XW's behaviour still hurts and is frustrating. I still have the odd bad dream. I still fight with sleep issues (too much, too little). BUT none of these are to the extreme degree they once were. None of these send me back out to the booze or drugs. None of these leave me laying in bed for days on end. None of these leave me suicidal.
When these challenging feelings show up, I take steps to work THROUGH them. I have not been spared FROM them. More often than not... in my experience... God delivers us through things rather than from things. So I view it that I am in God's hands even when I feel hurt or bad.
