I want to talk to him. H has not responded since I propositioned him (blush still humiliated). I have not made any contact except to apologize and left it at that. I find myself trying to think of excuses to contact, and know that is the wrong way to handle it, so I thought I would just stop for a minute, catch my breath, and post. AHHHHH. This is so damned frustrating. And I was doing so well...all of a sudden it hits out of the blue. Breath Lola breath.

SOMEONE TALK ME DOWN PLEASE!!!!!

Im still standin better than I ever did looking like a true survivor feeling like a little kid Im still standin after all this time and Im picking up the pieces of my life without you on my mind..