All the above says to me is that we must live this day by day, moment by moment...some of us will have the bad luck that we get 'dumped' once again, this time by the family of our spouses, some of us will be lucky enough to still have good relationships. I am not God and cannot look into the future. I refuse to lock my heart up. I want to love them too, and if they love me back, then that is wonderful, if one day they stop doing that, it will be their loss, not mine and I will know that my heart was always open to them. I know it keeps me in a vulnerable place, but it is who I am, and I think that even with H, who has hurt me most of all by making the choices he has, under the circumstances...I still want to keep my heart open.
I am sorry that some of you have gone through so much pain, I hope I will be spared, but who knows....
I can only hope that God is out there looking out for us and helping us find our true destination.
Much love to you all...
Love Cinders xxx
"In the depths of my winter, I realized there is within me an invincible summer" Albert Camus
