Glad to hear you're getting better. There's nothing worse than feeling alone and depressed. Each and every day is a good day. Tell yourself....."today will be a good day" no matter what the circumstances. Take a deep breath and watch how God will lead you. I can't say how much I'm thankful for what happened to me. I was devastated, that's a fact! However, I've changed in so many ways. I actually like myself (except maybe a few pounds) but I like how I've managed to raise our kids on my own for over a year. I paid my own bills, I started my own business and BOOM! This business has grown dramatically. Can't say it's been easy but that's the fun part. Live and learn. Years ago I would've thrown my hands up and quit. I would've ran to my husband for help.
Life is funny. It hurts when things don't go the way we planned. We've got to be strong even though we just want to stay in bed and cry all day/night.
Stay strong. If you still don't feel comfortable around him and you just wish he would change back to the way things were, maybe the person that needs to change is you. We all want to change our spouses but maybe it's us that need change. The moment I changed my way of thinking and behaving, he noticed. He noticed I was independent. I ignored his needs. I ignored my true feelings while he was away. He saw a new woman. Take care of yourself. Keep moving forward. Life doesn't end because of a man. Look at Hillary...she was humiliated in front of the world (remember the "intern" and Bill)? Did that stop her from doing what SHE wanted to achieve? She's not that close to winning but she's not a quitter. That's the advantage women have. We get beat down to the ground by a man but we jump right back up and we keep moving forward. Why should we let a man run our lives?
Let God lead the way. If you force something that's not there then God does NOT want you to go that route. Trust your intuition. That may be God speaking to you.
me = 34 H = 35 kids = 3 worst day of my life: march 24, 2006 he filed: april 20 Present day: Wedding ring on, he's looking forward to another baby, taking day by day, we talk about our feelings whenever possible.