My H said to me " I told you many times I needed more from you.. and you didnt listen.... I wasnt looking for anyone it just happened..." WTF? Affair.... I even dislike the word.... It leaves a path of destruction for the Family and the two involved are unaware and blissfully Fckued up. I am so over my H's affair. Even though it may not sound like it. He also was the one who when it got rocky ... the arms of a stranger will fix it. WTF? Once again,,,,,????????????? Nothing can be fixed from without ,, you need to fix it from within. Getting sex from a stranger I dare say will not fill the void left by someone who you loved and was unconscious they were hurting you.
I never honestly knew how ugly I made my H feel by my LD and lack of initiative for so long... and every time he strayed ... I shut down more. Easier to get a stranger to feed his Ego than to take a risk and find me again.... he even told me he never wanted to leave but the pain was far to great he couldnt take in any more. It is a viscious cycle .. H feels unwanted Wife feels unappreciated H tries to have sex to get closer and "feel" her Wife thinks how dare he want to "X" me when I feel like this H is trying to say ... I love YOU..., lets talk...., with his body... and she somehow never gets it.. and she is dying to hear him say I love you and I need you and he is but with his body...
That is how I lived it anyway.... I really try to remember when he wants to ML he is basically saying I love you and I need you and this makes me love you even more.
