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[KarenMarieS]

Hey everyone!

Back from a very busy, exhausting, HOT weekend!
Graduation was really nice!
Long but nice, we decided to go to the morning ceremony as well so that meant getting up at my sisters at 5:00 am to drive to my brothers, where we all got into a 15 person van we rented for the drive to L.A. Longg day, and it was 103! really odd heat wave in May, which made it a tad uncomfortable.

The actual commencment for Rys PoSci class was at the Shrine auditorium, where it was nice and cool and quite appropriate for what was to come next, as that is where they use to have the acedemy awards and I was to put on a Best Actress role.

No sooner had we walked outside from the ceremony ,I am standing there looking for my S, as I got a tap on the shoulder--- turn around and sure enough..... theres ex. ugggh
ok so put on the smile face, Hiiiiiiii
I asked if he had seen Ry and He said yes, but how about a hug?

NOT what i wanted to do w/ my folks there, who just cant get over their disgust for him, but I had to play nice as there was my son! Had not seen ex in about a year- boy he has gotten grey! and thin---
If that wasnt bad enough----- he turns around and as natrual and matter of factly as can be,,,,there she is, in front of me,,HER
He said , Karen, this is L----- she held out her hand and said HIIIII nice to meet you, I managed a friendly Hi and shook her hand, couldnt say 'nice to meet you" tho,couldnt do it,

I turned around to introduce B to ex and they had already started their niceties.
THEN my B, BIL and SIL shook ex hand --- um okkk

My parents wouldnt even so much as look his way nor would my lil sister or niece- I know whos gonna be IN MY will! LOL

Anyway I just wanted to get away from them, Ex said if your going over to the reception area, can WE borrow Ry now so WE can take pics.
I said of course! and walked away---

Of course my SIL came over and said,karen would you go over and take a pic w/ your S and ex, i know its hard but you can do it, for Ry,,,so I did. smiled and then again walked away to be w/ B and my family---

I just wanted that surreal part to be over and get back to having fun w/ my family, I didnt even say goodbye to ex, just left it at that. I was friendly but not overly- It was just very awkward for me.

When we were driving home and I had time to think back about it I was confused w/ my feelings, not about my ex, but about this woman w/ MY son, why is SHE at MY kids grad?? why would SHE have pics taken w/ MY son?? she didnt raise him, she didnt even meet him till he was 20! I hated the thought she was trying to butt into his life, she can have my ex, but I'll be damned if she gets my S too!

Wish I could process why I am having these weird feelings 6 yrs later, maybe cause I have never seen or met her before and I know the first time is hard.
Even is she wasnt the OW, I dont want her taking my place anymore, she did w/ my ex, She best not w/ my S.
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On a catty note lol I was pleasantly surprised ! I was imagining her this Barbie Doll beauty, and I'd really feel old and frumpy, i told the girls I was expecting Jennifer Aniston and got Jodi Foster at best, with big hips!! lol
a rather plainer woman, w/ buggy eyes, ok there I said it, Im a B**** I know but it did make me feel better lol

Ok got that over.
The rest of the day besides I swore I got heat stroke walking back to campus! was great, had a nice party at my B after.
And the rest of the weekend at the D.land hotel was great!!

oh Barb, because of a few things B and I skipped D.land and just did Downtown Disney, kinda bummed but not sad about missing walking in 103 degree heat in the crowds!

Ok so WHY am I feeling a bit of a slap in the face that woman was there??

and i have no clue why my color changed lol