I thought from your post on my thread something was up, I agree with the "stop looking for reassurances" part. Can't he discipline the kids too? I wouldn't say Daddy will be mad as that won't be you closer together. Just a few thoughts, give yourself a break too, you are doing a good job, trying your best to keep your family together and that is an important job. Do you have a girlfriend you could go camping with and swing by the get together? Hope you have a better day tomorrow.