You are like a dog with a bone! You just will not let go. I think my H would not care about the emails. He has known through the years that I had old letters from OM. He told me years ago he doesn't read my email and I believe him. My password is automatic on the computer. He could read my mail anytime.
I have some of his letters to OW. He printed them out and hid them in his papers. I found them and have them hidden. He knows I have them, because I showed him a particularly hurtful quote from one of them when he was complaining that I say hurtful things to him. I said you want to see hurtful words, and I showed him the quote typed on a new piece of paper.
I do think my situation now is different than Didi's. She is still longing for OM, so his letters hold power. I was taught a big lesson when my husband successfully did what I had never been able to do, reunite with his lost love. I got my comeuppance and have my tail between my legs.
