Wading with Water wings - 23 years...

[CBK]

Just had lunch with my one our mutual friends - our kids grew up together. It was a good convo. He said of all the couples, we were the last ones that they all thought this would happen to! They could tell who is working and who isn't on the M. My WAW doesn't think they can tell - got news for her. He said that he wished there was something he could do - I said so do I. I probably said more than I should have, but your know what, I am so tired of putting up the good front. I don't go into details, but I do let them know I was caught off guard and WAW initiated the entire thing, I am working on saving the M and will do so for a long time. We call them the 7 families, we have been doing stuff for 10 years together and they love us and we love them. Another piece of my life I may eventually have to give up if we cannot settle. I don't think I could bring another person into that group, I am sure WAW couldn't bring the current OM - but you never know.

My stomach is turning into knots, I wish WAW would not have called to schedule the meeting today, I would have much prefered NC until Thursday, now I am only thinking what she wants and assuming it is the worst. I guess that is good, low to no expectations, then anything above that is icing...

Emotionally detach, I am not consistantly thinking about her, just what the next step is going to be. Wish I was a mind reader, but if I was that, I wouldn't be in this sitch.

Okay mind STOP THINKING!!!!

CBK