Help! New to this...still hoping for R

[Rusty]

Okay - someone HELP!!! Did I make a big backsliding mistake? In talking with my father about the possible D and the business interests, I have decided I need to take a position on the board of directors of our business. He agreed, so I TM my H and told him I wanted to be on the board. He called, said fine, asked why and I told him that if we D, I will have my own ownership and I wanted representation on the board. He then called me later and said "you had wanted to set a time to discuss D, when do you want to meet?" I said I wasn't sure and that I still needed to keep the health insurance so wasn't sure what to do. Then I asked him if he had written anything down (which we had talked about him doing before). H said, nothing official. I said the only reasong I wanted to pursue anything was to secure my ownership in the company,as it was the only thing I had left for my future. H then said, that's not true, there was alot I could still do. I got semi-upset and said what he was saying was not true and I did not want to continue the conversation. I said, we have no savings, no retirement, no home equity, so how could he say that. Then I said - I have absolutely no future because of YOU! And I was very angry about that. Told him to fax or email me whatever he was thinking and we would see how far apart we were. YIKES - was it terrible? I didn't cry - voice got quivery, but no raging, tears, name-calling, etc. HELP!