Hey SPM, I just wanted to say hi and see how you are. And if and when the time comes for you to move on completely from your journey with your wife, I think there are still women in the world who can see the good in others, who find a man so devoted to his children attractive and desirable, who will appreciate all the work you have done on yourself, who will want a man who has lived and had some bumps along the way and who is passionate and compassionate and who always tries to do the right thing as you have. Believe me when I tell you, you will be ok.
Cherish those times with your wonderful kids. Make memories with them, live in the moment, make every second count, celebrate them. You can never go wrong if you do that. They will always remember those times with you - always.