I drive the ever so sexy and hot mini van! Though H has promised me a mini for my 40th birthday, just need to test drive one and make sure the kids can fit in the back seat.
Pet names are to be mysterious and I'm much to shy to post them on the BB!
Staying with the good things:
1. H has begun to call to just check in everyday and say hi. I'm finding this much better than if I call him at work. This way he picks a time good for him and sometimes I call him, it could be bad time at work, and I'll read too much into a grumpy mood and think something is wrong and thoughts go spiraling out of control.
2. We leave tomorrow for our 5 day mystery vacation to LA that H planned all on his own and is using all his frequent flier miles for the family.
3. I took the evening karate class with the big boys (usually go in the day when it is mostly moms), and for the most part, held my own. Though I did feel like I was going to puke at various times due to heat/exhausation, but I didn't and glad I did the class.
My current dilemma is I would like to go to the Ohio camping get together. H will be out of town. However, H knows nothing of my involvement in this BB. I want to go, but I don't want to lie about where I will be (he'll be in Europe). How do I bring up for the last 8 months I've been making friends with complete strangers who have helped me through the most difficult time in my life, while H turned his back on me? I honestly don't know how he would react: Anger at my revealing our lives on the internet? Defensiveness? Superiority, looking down at me because I needed this help? These are my best guesses. I can avoid the situation and not go, but I would really like to.
DB, Risk unhappiness to achieve happiness--something like that?
