ms ladybug concerned...MR bug wants to move home.

[ms ladybug]

Well, the roller coaster continues. He was actually really pleasant last week. He CAME TO CHURCH with me on mother's day and took me out to breakfast that day. Gave me a really nice card, and a present "from the kids". Again though, turning into his normal meanie self later in the week. It's like he can't keep it up when he starts acting nice.

THEN, yesterday was the appt with my therapist to tell h that all my psych test came back normal...he wasn't thrilled at all. Which I really find sad. He can't be happy that I'm healthy. He wasn't happy to find that I am medically healthy (he swore I had thryoid problems, and wasn't happy to find that I had normal levels, excellent cholesterol, etc...) and now he's not happy to find that I'm mentally healthy as well. His conclusion..."I thought you has some sort of mental disorder and could get on meds so we can proceed with our lives and get to marriage counseling. Now that I know that's not the case, I realize that you CHOOSE to treat me like crap. I'm done." At the end of the session which consists of him telling my therapist a bunch of crap about me, and me telling my therapist about both the verbal and physical abuse, he leaves.
H
e was parked in front of me, so I go out to my car, and he is getting on his motorcycle and adjusting his helmet, and he doesn't even LOOK at me. So, I drive off. He calls me about 2 min later and asks me why I just drove off without talking to him?!?
I said, "you said you're done. You walked out without saying anything. you didn't look at me when I was getting in the car. What do you want? You want me to come over and chit-chat with you? You want a hug? What do you expect me to do?"
He says, "well that was quite a show you put on in there."

????

Then he tells me that I NEVER call him. I never try to talk to him, etc...
To which I replied, "Do you blame me? You're not pleasant to talk to!"
He says, "Well you can try. But you don't. You only do what YOU want to do. You don't care about anyone OTHER THAN YOURSELF." (he's repeated this about 1,000times in the last 6mos).
I said, "that's not true. I'm just going to allow you to treat me disrespectfully, and when you do, I refuse to entertain you any longer."
His reply,"you don't know anything about respect."
At that point, we hung up.

This morning he calls me to discuss some money issues, and which insurance company he should insure his motorcycle with, etc... After discussing it and deciding which company, I said, "OK. Go with that company, and choose this payment plan."
He says,"OK. Is that all you have to say to me?"
I said "I don't have anything else to say. I'm waiting for a call from..."
"FINE then! Nice talking to you! BYE!" hangs up.

Any wonder why I don't call him???

I talked to my mom last night and she asked me, "Are you going to be sad if he files for divorce?"
I said, "Of course I'll be sad, because divorce is a sad thing. It's going to mean moving, and it'll be really hard, but all I need to do is remember Christmas, or Easter, or really any of the past 6mos, and I'll know be OK with it."

And this I know, I'll be OK.