No, he wasn't rude. He has actually never left me to answer the phone, even through the worst of it all.
He is thinking about the good times...he has even brought up going on another trip several times. Maybe that would be good for us right now. Just something short since he doesn't have vacation time yet.
He was always one to reminisce, but he had rewritten our history and it seemed like he couldn't remember any good between us.....if feels good that he is remembering.
The more time I spend with him the more insight I get about how this could have happened. He didn't deal with it right, he ran from his problems rather than confronting them..but I think it is the only way he knew to deal with it. I am finally getting that it wasn't me he was running from but more from responsibility and guilt. OW wasn't a responsibility, he didn't feel a need to take care of her like he did me...and he didn't feel like he could take care of me if he got out of the Air Force...but at the same time he felt like he HAD to get out of the AF. I think it goes back to that "I have nothing to offer" statement that he says. OW took him out of reality.
