No. My relationship with OM was physical and emotional. I had lived with him for a time about a year before I met my husband. And while I developed my relationship with my husband, I told him that since the other relationship preceded his, and we were not married, that I would continue it. However, I never had permission to continue it after marriage. Since OM did not want marriage and kids, he had once said to me, "let's get together again in 20 years." I had agreed. We were 21 at the time. I fully expected that when I was 41 we would get back together. When it didn't happen, I thought it was just late. I carried him in my heart, expecting to reunite with him for about 25 years. This was incredibly distructive to my marriage. I thought my husband couldn't read my thoughts. And that may be true, but, my thoughts led to cold actions that my husband could easily read.
