Jackie: If it's any help, I find, so often, we "teach" or "train" other people how to treat us. The way we react, or respond, does effect them. In other words, we do create our own monsters, or own joys. As you look at your goals, and as you monitor things, look at what you want and work to bring that about. And like everyone else here, I hope what you want does come about, and that even though what you're doing is hard work, it is still, worth it. DoRight
