Thanks all for the words of encouragement and support. And I thought pieceing was going to be a cake walk compared to the other stuff, ha!
Got really frustrated this weekend, starting going down the road--what about me? I'm doing all this stuff and what have you done? He really hasn't changed, it is his reaction to my changes. Though, that is what this is about, isn't it?
Saturday, he was really off, grumpy and the sort. So in bed I asked him about the ILYs--does he mean them or do they just slip. He said it is meant and it has been a few times, so they aren't just slips (guess he is counting, too). I continued: why somedays and not others (really some week, a total of about 4 now), he said somedays they fit and somedays it doesn't. He said sometimes he feels like we are back and other days he doesn't. To be honest, I feel the same way, but obviously I am not going to throw the towel in over it.
Sunday was good until he started critizing me about how I roll the hose back up--really getting agitated and telling me how sad it is that I can't roll it up properly. I got very upset--how dare he keep getting after me about different things, yada yada yada, he finally asked me what was bothering me and I told him. He apologized and asked that we didn't fall into the same trap as before, so I let it go, happy for an apology.
Just frustrated. Need to reread DR and get my butt back on track.
