Wading with Water wings - 23 years...

[CBK]

Thanks GF - one of my good friends said I lost the woman I married the day she started the A - I do get what you are saying about who she is today - and I don't want that person. She has a lot of work to do as well to be that caring, loving person that I fell in love with. Over this past weekend, I asked myself that same question, am I in love with this person or the thought of the past person - obviously, it was not the person of today. The person today is willing to hurt me at the drop of a hat it seems - I hope she finds herself. Meanwhile, I need to find myslef during the process - and that is what you are telling me.

Luckily, my IC just called to see how I was doing, we were able to talk a few issues out as well.

I wish she would have never called or I didn't pick up the call and let it go to voice mail - but like I said, I will do okay through the day - have a lunch with my neighbor who happens to work just down the street from me, so that will be good.

When I talk backsliding here, I mean as far as emotional detachment - I will get through this, I will be okay and I will be a much stronger man as I learn to control the emotions from within!

Thanks again,

CBK