Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

I hear ya. Like I said, I'm the eternal optimist, but I'm also a realist. I hope I haven't given the impression that I think WW is on board with anything right now. I don't think that for one minute. But I also don't think our situation is as bad as it was 6 weeks ago.

Her reaction to me exposing to OMW doesn't bother me in the least. Quite the contrary. I actually smile when I think back about all the fog babble spewed at me. And I didn't stop there. 2.5 months after that exposure, I exposed her STD. 2 months after that I exposed to the kids. And where I'm at right now, I really don't care what her reaction is to the speech that's coming. Really. Like DS told me, why don't you just divorce so we can live our lives without her. I'm totally there.

What I'm doing now is what I think is RIGHT and currently the best way to bring her around. I guess I just keep thinking what my counselor told me. It took WW a long time to convince herself that our marriage sucked and I was this terrible person so it'll take her a while to come out of that, and that's the time I'm willing to give her. I guess I just don't see the harm in giving her a little more time to de-fog/WD if that's in fact what is going on with her. If it isn't, whether I say anything now or in a month or so doesn't really change anything. But if I continue to fill whatever needs she'll let me and continue to show her what life can be like in the family, if she does leave when I give her the chit or get off the pot talk, the last thing she'll remember is how nice it's been the last couple months. In MB terms, this is like my plan A prior to plan B (if needed). It's like now that I'm fairly confident the affair is over, I'm going to plan A for a while and then go to plan B.

Make sense?