Hope4us struggle, part 4

[Hope4us]

You're right Pup. I always look for the good in people. I've had some hard lessons learned in my business life that can attest to that.

And you don't have to worry about me. Even though I'm the eternal optimist, when I've had enough, my anger pushes me over the edge. In fact, I said to WW one time after I got the ILYBINILWY speech that she's never seen me REALLY MAD. Not many people have as I was always brought up to control that anger. I remember 6 weeks ago I was ready to send off another very forceful letter to WW and you told me that was too forceful for you, so I've got it in me.

And that time may be coming and you could be absolutely correct in that the times I've been forceful is when she's responded. I guess my thinking is that now she claims NC and I'm seeing some small steps forward I'm not going to push this for another month and see if we're making any more progress. Kind of give her the benefit of my optimism. I just want to give us some time to let the anger subside some. Since Nov (when I exposed to OMW) the anger has been palatable. And if she was ever thinking of ending it on her own, by my sometimes misplaced timing, I think it just reinforced her opinion of me being controlling. Not that I'm upset by anything I've done. Quite the opposite, but I've thought long and hard the last few months and I think if I'd had been able to stomach her affair just a little longer, she might have ended it on her own. I'd seen a number of times where he treated her like crap and then was all sorry and chit. If I could have stood by long enough, it probably would have imploded. OMW told me that OM is the most controlling cuss around and I KNOW that I saw evidence of that in his dealings with WW. Heck, while WW and I were on vacation together in Oct he was all over her because she had said we were having a good time and it made him extremely jealous that she was having fun with her HUSBAND!

That's another reason him moving probably hurt us more than anything. No chance for them to really get on each other's nerves when you only see each other every other week.

Anyway, as always, I appreciate you keeping me honest and thinking. The forceful talk is coming, but I've just decided to give her another month or little longer to see if she's being honest about NC and seeing if we can work.