Wading with Water wings - 23 years...

[CBK]

Thanks all - a new twist...

WAW just called and asked to see if we could get an earlier appointment than Thursday - may be going today... She will call back. This is the first contact I have had with her and I was upbeat and said if she wanted to go today, that is fine with me.

Whoops, just got an email saying we could wait until Thursday, she had a meeting this afternoon. She is dying to tell me somehting... I am not real optimistic, but who knows. I did answer her email saying we could do both today and Thrusday.

I am on the fence with MC - mostly because it seems to validate all of her feelings toward me and I come out beat up. I have to say though, that was when I was just an emotional wreck. Not saying I couldn't slip back down that slope, but right now, MC is the only contact I will have with WAW - will see where the convo goes.

I am going to make it simple - if she wants to come back, OM has got to be out of the picture. Even if she doesn't want to work on us right now, that is okay. The other is to be treated with civility, I am okay with a roommate right now - we can work from there. If she cannot abide by these two boundaries, I don't see much sense in her moving back.

I miss her a great deal, still love her, but am losing the need to call her or worry about her every move right now. She has been lying to me for over a year now, she won't stop overnight. I just got that ever-so-familiar knot in my stomach... groan.

CBK