He's "done". Period.

[shatteredheart31]

Chris....you are not alone, and you are not an idiot! You're hurting and angry and you have every right to be. If there is any place where your feelings are understood it's here! Most of us feel the same way you do...we are all just in different stages. You and I are still new to this, it's still very raw for us. I have had the exact same backslides as you have, as recently as last Friday! It's really hard to follow the DB plan when you're so torn up emotionally. It's telling us to go against our natural instincts to beg, plead, cry, etc. It's not easy and sometimes even when I know what I shouldn't do, I still do it anyway. We all slip and when we do, we just have to take it as a learning experience, pick ourselves back up, dust ourselves off and try new again.

Your H and sitch sounds so much like mine! I also have an H who has made up his mind and is convinced that we are done. Fortunately, for financial reasons he's not rushing to file any papers so that's the small hope I cling to...that when the timing is right he will have a change of heart.

Truth is, your H probably is looking forward to being alone, but don't set yourself up for disappointment by hoping he will miss you while you're gone. Take full advantage of your vacation. Enjoy the time with your girls, try to relax and have fun. When you come home, act as if, no expectations. I've learned that having expectations that were not met have hurt me more than anything else. I'm trying to let go of them and not have any.