Well, last night H was at the apartment doing laundry and ironing. We taked again. I think we gotta stop it but it clears up so much. At least he's still thinking of our R. Maybe not in a positive way but he is looking at it carefully. I think I'll avoid all R talks for the next few days though to take the pressure off.
As it turns out H's cousin and her H from Peru are visiting this coming weekend. H said they would stay here and sleep on the sofa bed. I told him that I would sleep on the sofa and they could take my bed. He said that he would also stay here because he felt it wouldn't be right if his family stayed here and he didn't. I told him that it was fine and that it'd be nice to have him around. He asked if he could have his tiny corner of the bed for the weekend (before he left he slept as far away from me as possible). He said the same thing that at least 80% of WAS say "I don't want you to get your hopes up". I told him I wasn't (big lie!)
So what's a girl to do? I have H his cousin, and her H planning on staying here for the weekend. I honestly see this as a chance to show H that we can "live" together without fighting and we can be good together.
I hope that they don't change their plans because to tell the truth its a golden opportunity. So any prayers, hoaxes, wishes etc that he does stay here this weekend would be appreciated right now.
Jen
Jen *The more anger towards the past you carry in your heart, the less capable you are of loving in the present*
