I gave H the letter and he has said nothing except you drove all that way to put a note in my truck( I was in the area for my work ).
This morning he gave me a few kisses though and said ILY.
I did tell him in the letter just what I needed from him to feel love, and reciprocate his. I also told him what I felt were his and asked him to let me know if they were not. I wrote that I chose to love him and explained that I felt that he was waiting for the in love feeling to come back and explained my take on the subject. Im'e sure that gave him something to think about.
I did mention his talking in his sleep. also said no I did not think anything was going on but that it hurt just the same even though I know he can't control that. Also kind of joked about it as he used to talk in his sleep all of the time so I would ask for things and he always said yes. I told him I would prefer that.
I feel he still won't really mention much if anything. He'll just act on it for a while anyway. I don't want him to feel pressure, that I know he still needs time and I will give him that but it has been a very long time and he needed to know just exactly how I felt,( I do think he is far enough along in his journey to be able to talk about this stuff ) and will tell him that face to face but he needs to know where I stand as we have been in this position way too long and as Michelle says if it isn't working do something different. I did make sure that I told him how much I appeciate everything he is to me and our kids. I also made sure to mention that I felt not talking is what got us to this point in the first place.
So that is my story for the day. Just wish it was the End. Who knows just maybe.
JAK
You don't get to choose how you're going to die. Or when, you can only decide how you're going to live now. ~Joan Baez
