Just got back from IC - I was very pulled together when I went it - like I said, I am glad I have a good IC. We talked about what had transpired and I read him the letter - I did tear up a bit when I read the letter though. He thought the letter was very good, no guilt thrown her way, was very direct and succinct, so I felt good about it. He does know Michelle's work and he has been a great help.
We talked about how I made it through the weekend - it was like a huge weight lifted off of my shoulders - I was so obsessed with everything - but on Friday, I felt better, the weekend had a couple of rough patches, but slept better than I have in weeks. I think it is just coming to the realization there isn't much I can do except make me a better person. I am disappointed that she is going to the extreme she is, but that is her deal and she has to get through this on her own. I am willing to carry her if she wants, but I don't think she wants that right now! Maybe some day.
Am going to Nordstrom to get my newly tailored clothes and planning my week for a trip next week, decided to stay the weekend in DC with some friends. Need to figure out what we are going to do this weekend though! I think my D21 is going to see one of her girlfriends in college, so S19 and I will hang out. I am sure one of our friends will have something, so will look forward to that.
So - negatives so far:
Miss my WAW Had a couple of "rough patches" today Am concerned for WAW and thought at one point to invite her for dinner!
Positives
I didn't contact WAW for dinner Reall looked forward to work today and accomplished a lot Had a good IC session - the time flew by Going to get my newly tailored clothes! Will cook dinner and spend time with the kids!
Working on PMA tonight, maybe no GAL as I want to root on the Spurs for my friend H4H - so maybe a one beer in front of the tube!
Later - Peace
CBK
Last edited by CBK; 05/20/0812:10 AM.
M=46 W=47 M=24 (together 26) D21, S19 Bomb 3/16/08 OM 3/28/08 WAW moved out 5/16 Divorce final 10/09