I had talked to MIL Friday. This was the first time I had actually spoken to her since H left the first time. She kept asking me how I was and how S13 was. I told her honestly that we were holding on and making it through each day. I told her about my son's problems in school and told her I was managing to keep things as normal as possible for him. She kept telling me to move on and be happy. I told her I was trying to find my happiness but I wasn't there yet. She then started crying and told me that her kids didn't have a very good example growing up (UNDERSTATEMENT!) and now they are having to learn the hard way. She said she doesn't understand how H could do this to me and our son, that we were the best thing that ever happened to him and that we saved him. I was of the same opinion so I didn't argue with her! I held it together pretty well until the end of the conversation when I had to hang up and go back in to work. I started crying then and couldn't seem to stop. I told her I was sorry and that she would always be my family no matter what. She was really sweet about it. It was a comfort.
Today, H picked S13 up from school because he had a Dr.'s appt. Right after he picked him up S13 sent me a text telling me he wanted his dad to take him to karate tonight. I told him that was fine but would it be ok if I went too since it is his testing tonight for his next strip on his belt. He said yes but I also had him ask H if it was ok with him. He said yes. I then remembered that my son's medication just ran out this morning and he can't be without it. I sent H a text asking if he could pick it up today after the Dr. appt since he gets the prescription during the check up. He said he would and added that the Dr. has put him on the same meds as S13. WHOA!!! Unsolicited personal info! I said that was interesting and asked if it was from the same Dr. as our son (as I know he was just ordered to see him by the dept. after a forced administrative leave). He said yes and that he had put him on AD's also. WHOA!!!!!! More unsolicited info! It was really strange that he told me all of that but it was welcome info. Hopefully these meds will help him come out of this crisis. It might not help with our R but it sure can't hurt him! Someone finally stepped up and took action with him! I have to say I LOVE HIS CHIEF!!!!
I'll keep you all posted. I am chosing to look at this as a positive sign for him. I WON'T look at it as a positive sign for us though. I'm drifting along right now just assuming that our M is over and if it ends up any differently than that, great. If not, then I'm already prepared, right? Is that cynical?
T19 M15 S19 XH47 M43 bomb12/4/07 PA5/07 S12/26/07 D final 11/17/08 Back together with no defined R 05/2010 confused....to say the least!!!