CW, I'm so sorry. It's an awful feeling to think of losing not only one's M, but so many other things in one's life. It absolutely sucks and I wish these men would just stop the insanity! I am very much in the same place.
Me/X-H: 47/48 T 19 yrs M 16 years D14 D10 ILYBINILWY: 10/07 H moved out 6/08