Cinders, this is mrs-nasty-and cynical writing here. A grown up person doesn't actually want to be adored. Loved, yes, and respected, but adoration belongs to the very young and tremendously immature.
A sane and balanced person should not actually continue to 'adore' another person, as it is stunting to their and the 'adored' one's growth. If your h needs that all his life he is going to have to hop from relationship to relationship as the adoration gradually wears off. Or he finds someone stuck in adoration mode - but he might eventually get bored, or search for someone who adores him EVEN more. What I am trying to say is it isn't healthy and it isn't sustainable.
Being grown up hurts, but ultimately it is more fun!
I am not sure that the grown up person you are could make the spoilt little brat that your h has become, a happy man, he would always have been looking for a mindless girl to adore him. DOn't beat yourself up on this one Cinders,
