Here is the strange part.......no wait, it's all strange
He said he misses me, he often thinks about me, he thinks about the love we shared, he said he's never loved nor will love someone like that again.
He said he's built these walls up to protect his feelings.
I said since he thinks of me and misses me that should tell him something....he said it does, but he simply cannot go back as his walls are built.
He said he knows many people who are still depressed and hurting over the loss of thier marriage, and what did I want him to be like? His friend Teddy?? Who cries everyday for the loss of his wife.
I said no, but I gurantee you anyone of these people would give anything to have that second chance. He agreed.
BUT
He still goes back to my disrespecting him.
He still blames me for things, like......he alienated his friends/family just for me.
How I, yes I caused friction in his family.
I had to defend myself at that time.....because I bent over backwards for them, they alienated me because I have backbone!!
He would purposely not look at attractive women while we walked through the mall so it didn't upset me.
He went on and on about all the things I did.......nothing on what he did, then near the end he said ok, so some of it was his fault....
My mind is mush......just when I think I can move forward he calls and does this to me.
WHY????
I started crying.....I couldn't help it, I've been hurting and missing him so bad as of late.
I told him I loved him, I missed him so very much, I said I wanted him to come home.....
He said AGAIN, that he would check his schedule and we would talk.
I asked him did he miss me? He said quietly.......yes.
I asked him if he still loves me....he said we'll talk.
I said it's a simple yes or no.
He said he's late for work.
Change the Policy. Allow PM's Free all of us.
Also some new and improved emoticons would be nice!
