Just wanted to send a post out to thank everyone for the well-wishes. My surgery was a few days ago and things went pretty well. I should be just fine; I'm recuperating at home now. I'll admit I was quite nervous but I had my family with me, so that helped a great deal.
H has been concerned about all of this and in the past couple of weeks, he has been calling me daily; first, leading up to the surgery and now after to check on me. He will call or text a few times during the day, to see how I'm feeling. The day after I was operated on, he sent a beautiful bouquet of flowers to my home with a nice card (which he forgot to sign) saying he was thinking about me and was glad everything worked out ok. Later when he called to see if I had gotten them he asked if he'd signed the card and I told him he had not, and at first I wasn't sure who they were from. He made a joking comment about some other lucky guy getting all the credit for his nice gesture; I don't think it ever occured to him I might not know who could have sent me flowers.
He talks of work and a hectic schedule; I don't see him ever changing that or slowing himself down. I sit back and I hear/see someone who's struggling to figure out how to live his life on his own; even the most mundane, routine things cause him disorganization.
If he is still seeing that new gf, I don't know about it. But he's been calling so often and asking about my family, etc. that I tend to think that might be over. It doesn't make a difference though, as he's still not coming to me asking to make a solid effort. So, I am receptive to his calls and texts and I respond in kind, but I don't read into any of this as it is just his guilt reaching out again; his regret speaking.
I can't wait to feel entirely better. My b-day is next week; so hard to believe I was only 36 when I first started posting here! Thanks again for the kind thoughts. Hugs to all.
Most of us really marry only once. First love endures, even unto our dying day. And we never really divorce.
