lbs for 8 mnths now i feel like becoming waw

[buenosuerte]

it's been a while since i have posted. the past few days have not been good. honeymoon phase defintely wore off. i walked away from him tonight after he reached through my car window and hit me on my head. he has not changed at all. it is all about his friends first, his mother/father/sisters/brothers/soccer everything. he doesn't make time for me or his daughter and puts us last. he believes woman are to raise the kids keep them away from the fathers so the fathers can hang out with their friends, drink and party. that is not a life i want or one i want my daughter to be part of at all. her and i deserve so much more. i'm so confused, my heart says one thing and my mind tells me to do another. so i made it so i can not call him or text him, got rid of my phone, have no way of contacting him. i look back on the 40 days i was lrt and begged and pleaded for a chance with him and i feel i had it, i was willing but he wasn't, he only wanted d and me when he wants us and as soon as we are inconvient or he has a better offer, friends/casino/etc, he puts us to the side. now i have to try to be strong and stick to what my mind is telling me to do. that this is not going to change, i don't want my d to ever feel like she is second third forth or even last.