Thank you for the support! I'm trying to keep it together. I've had a couple of nights that I couldn't sleep & start thinking about everything, I know I shouldn't.
At 2am this morning I happened to be awake & heard a car wreck, then my motions lights came on in my fenced in back yard, I looked out & saw someone climbing over my privacy fence. He warped my chain gate a little bit. My parents were hear but slept thru the whole thing. I looked out the front & saw where an SUV had flipped in my neighbors ditch, they just abandoned it, I assume it was stolen & they were running. Police came & searched my back yard but of course they were gone. I miss my H for lots of reasons but that was really scary & I wanted him there with me so bad!!! I'm usually by myself so if my parents had not been here I would have felt worse. It's just hard after all these years together!!!
I'm trying to turn all this over to God but it is so hard not to think about it & worry about it, I keep day dreaming that he will come back & how he will come back, I know not good!
