Ready for the long ride.

[LucasE]

Thank you cat03 and Marcum. I really appreciate your words. My C helped me see that nothing has changed for a while and that that is good for now. It isn't getting worse. Holding steady, or in other words, in limbo. Well, a painful limbo. How does she do it? How did she flip off that switch? I wish I could switch off for a while. One huge fear that has been surfacing in my mind has been, what if she really wasn't ever happy in our M like she claims? What if these last 15 years really were just my fantasy. Nah, I have letters from her from last year where she calls me her soul mate, her partner in crime, her lover, her best friend. I just got to sit this out.

I leave for Africa in 40 minutes and I will be gone for a week. I try not to envision coming home to an empty house. Oops, I just envisioned it. The trip is one huge GAL move. All I have to do is get on the plane and let the distance do the work.

My heart goes out to you. This club sucks but I am extremely grateful that you are here. May all of your spouses pull their heads out of their assets. L