I too am sorry that you're going through this because I know EXACTLY how you feel. I said goodbye today of every hope I ever had about any sort of R with stbxw. I actually believed that until this day that some miracle would allow her to see the sincere remorse I feel for my part in the demise of our M and know that together we could overcome this. Unfortunately I'm a naive bumpkin that can't seem to read the writing on the wall. I wish that I could offer some relief through my expierence but tonight I'm at the same party next door. You're not alone.