The door is offically closed

[shoeprincess]

Been a bad week for me. Found out my X got married a few weeks ago. I knew it was going to happen but for some reason it is still hard to swallow. Then friday I was layed off again. So here I am jobless and left wondering what direction my life is going. Can't help but think about how X's life seems to be sailing along just fine. He is re married, working on becoming a photographer . I guess he had a showing of some of his work at a winery this weekend. Yes I am having a pitty party. He is the one who did wrong not me? I thought good things were supposed to happen to good people? Not reward the bad ones. ugg. And to top off my friday, I was waiting at a light to turn, and who drives by? OW. Soemthing tells me I have not moved on and I am not over what has happend. Why cant I let it go? I know people say dont let the WAS's actions effect your emotions but come on.. It happens and we can't deny it. Please dont' beat me too hard with the 2x4. I am already low. Thanks for listining.