Searching for the truth..for me 5

[phbear316]

Gosh everyone, I have to make sure i have tissues handy every time i get on this site today. The tears are flowing like wine and water here at my house.

Jenny, My pop up time is done in regards to h, I am tired of fighting for something that is not there right now. I am tired of banging my head against the wall.

The road has been long, and i know there is still a long way to travel, but My bags are almost packed and i am ready to take the journey.

I have a friend whom i will get the name of his attorney he used for his divorce this week, I am going to make an appointment to get information and protect me. I plan to go when h is in florida in two weeks.

Get this, h was all looking at me kinda weird tonight when i was texting a friend, the look was almost like who are you texting and why and what about.
Sorry you will never know H, I am being mysterious and it seems it is eating him up. Oh well.

Jenny, thank you, I have had good role models, you, sg, jeanette and others. Your strength i have found. I am in total awe with you. You are amazing. I wish i could be 1/3 amazing as you.

You are right nothing will break us. My friends here are friends for life. Love you to Jenny.

I know tomorrow will be difficult, but i am actually looking forward to it. Leasing a car in my own name. Scary, yes thrilling, you bet. I don't know how much i will sleep. Am i scared, yes. But this is just the beginning steps for me. For little does h know, i am taking my whole check and putting it into my account, then giving him a check for household items that need to be paid.

The steps are coming, the path is in front and i am taking the first steps tomorrow towards me. My new life

hugs
bear