Real life's getting more like fiction each day (2)

[Starshyne]

Well..things have yet again gone wacky. I just got off the phone with H. I was actually surprised to hear from him. He dind't call my cell phone like usual. He instead called the home phone. After a few minutues of chatting, he gets really quiet and says. "Sara I've been thinking and I have changed my mind about us. I miss you. I want to work things out." Now I have heard this story before, haven't I? So I say, "That is wonderful, but how will this be different than before when you said that and then hurt me again?" He says, "I dont' know. It just will be. I will stay in the garage if you want. I just am tired of all this. I miss you. I keep thinking about you and all the fun we had. All the vacations and and trips and good times we had." He then goes into how he thinks he wants to not go back to school and taking the nursing classes. He says how the only reason he wanted that was to make enough money to live on his own, and if we are working things out then he doesn't need that. I talk him into at least trying the classes because only good can come out of them. He says that he values what I think and will try them at least this week. He says that he is going to end it all this week (what "it all" is I am not sure) and come back home soon. The fact that he didn't pinpoint it makes me weary. I remind him that our 5 year wedding anniversary is this Saturday. Tell him that I too miss doing things with him, but I don't want to get hurt anymore. He understands.

He ends the conversation by telling me that he loves me. I tell him that I love him too.

It has only been a little over a week since I made him leave. Although this has been going on for 5 months now. I am just going to keep praying and believing that God is in control and not me.