Searching for the truth..for me 5

[phbear316]

SG

I don't have solid proof, just feelings that burning gut feeling, when you start to look back over things and realize one plus one is not equaling two. Something is off, I know it, I cannot put my finger on it. But believe me if it happened it did. I am 98% sure it did. More than one person who knew my best friend, asked me if he was or had an affair with her. So others were seeing what i am just beginning to see now.

I am glad you now see why its hard for me to have friends, girl friends for now. Glad you can see my side of it.

Its funny, they would do lots of things together, so would her an i don't get me wrong, but I always felt i could never be alone with other men, or do other things with the guys-men from work like go out for a drink cause I always felt it would look wrong to h and others if i was hanging out with men. Would give the wrong idea. So i would not go unless h was there, if h would not go neither would I. Not anymore

Well guess what, not anymore. The butterfly is ready to fly.

Yes i do deserve better, and better will come my way. Soon i hope.

I will look into that movie, if there is a rainy night this summer i will try and rent it. Thanks for you sweet comment about me to just beau.

hugs
bear