I was never in love with you

[artteach]

I feel for you my H told me the other day that "marriage is a gamble" and he has been sleeping on the couch. The kids have noticed (boys 4 and 7) and I am not really sure what to tell them. I have done the begging, lots of crying, persuing and now for the past day or so have backed off. It is really hard. The other day when he said the gamble thing I asked if he ever loved me at all (stupid question I backed him into a corner) and he said "I guess" I am really angry at him right now - my mother passed away 6 weeks ago we were very close and he has not helped me through it at all (he just lost his business and I know that is a blow but I really did need him there for me) I have been trying to forgive him just for my own well being but it is a hard thing to do. It does feel like everything is falling apart is falling apart right now. I hope we stay together, but if we don't I hope what I am learning through the DR book and grief counsling willhelp me at least get me through whatever happens and keep me and my sons sane.

M 40
H 41
M 14 years
2 Boys