Mishka's- new thread/new tude - H who?

[mishka422]

H has never been one to tell anyone how he feels about ANYTHING so finding out if that is why he didn't come to S13's class the other night because he didn't want to see me or if he just didn't think it would be that important to S13 will be virtually impossible. I've chosen to just let it go and see what happens on Monday night. H is picking our son up from school on Monday to take him to a Dr. appt. and he knows S13 has his stripe testing that evening and needs as much support as he can get. We'll see if he shows. He's not working Monday night so he has the opportunity to come.

I have tried giving H a schedule of when he can take our son to his activities and time together on some Friday evenings when H is off work. He never stuck to one of those schedules. He wants everything on his own time, whenever it's convenient for him without any regard to my schedule. I know he's being selfish but come on.....is common consideration too much to ask? I have pretty much given up on trying to schedule anything where he is concerned. I haven't been unreasonable in the least and I have been more than flexible but I'm really tired of always having to be.

I am moving forward with everything in my life. I am not going to dwell anymore on what H is doing with OW, the amount of destruction he has caused due to his selfishness, etc., etc.. I am in control of my reactions now and although I'm still angry with him in some ways for what he's done, I can see now that I am better off without him here making me feel like I'm not good enough for him. There are seriously only a few things I'm having to do now that I didn't do before and those are just growing experiences for me. I can now mow the lawn and my flowers have grown which is a total first for me. I had given up on trying to plant anything long ago because they always died! Exciting!

Well, nothing much else to say right now. I'm just trying to GAL and not having much luck with it yet. I have so little time to myself that I'm finding it hard to get involved in doing anything away from the house. I'm still working on it.